Sometimes it's All About Disclosure
Love unrequited. It's happened to the best of us. You meet someone, things click, and you really believe it could all end up going somewhere. You spend time together, have fun together, and before you know you begin to have feelings. Then suddenly, the bottom drops out of it all.
For whatever reason, he tells you that you can't be together. While there are many reasons for this, the result can be pretty much the same all around. You're left shaking your head and trying to figure out what the hell just happened.
Sometimes things may even yo-yo for awhile in which case your feelings just continue to grow. In the end, despite your best intentions, you've fallen in love with him. Now you're left with love unrequited. Bad enough to deal with on its own, it gets even more difficult if you try to maintain a friendship with him.
You hang out together sometimes, hit the clubs together once in awhile, maybe go to a movie now and then. He talks to you about women he's met or, worse yet, points one out at the club he'd like to hit on. All the while you're still trying to be his friend. And yet, your heart doesn't see it that way.
Your heart just knows that it really, really likes this guy or even loves him. When he calls you friend, you cringe. When he mentions other women, it tears you apart. When he wonders why you didn't go out with that great guy you met last week, all you can think is, "Why would I? It's you I want."
On top of that he expects you to hang out, to be his friend. How's that working for you so far?
So what do you do with all this crap? Keep it inside and it will ferment like a bad wine. It will begin eating at you and eating at you until you're ready to scream it from the mountain top. I'm afraid all that's left is a cut and run...right after you disclose.
Seriously, you can't continue to hang out with him and be his friend. It isn't going to get easier. In fact, it's only going to get more difficult. What do you think will happen the first time he actally does pick up some girl at the bar? You'll get upset, go home in tears, and think about how miserable you are for days.
You have to walk away girl. This is one instance where you can't have your cake and eat it too. You just can't. Before you go though, you have to purge. You have to tell him what's going on up in your pretty little head. Otherwise, it's just going to continue to ferment and leave you feeling sicker than ever.
What will be gained by disclosing? Will he suddenly realize he loves you too and can't live without you? Doubtful. But you will gain freedom. Everything in your heart will now be out in the open, and you can begin the 'getting over him' process. The fermentation will be done, the wine will be ready to drink, and life will go on.
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